Wednesday, May 07, 2008
feeling mentally drained today. was up around 7.30plus for the first time since... well.. officially it would be since my O levels. so that's like six months ago. anyways, was super stoned when i got to school by 9am. 9 bloody am!! i wouldnt even be up then. or even if by some rare mistake i was, i would turn over and sleep again.
at least mr jeffrey made it worthwhile. it was a bit pathetic since only FIVE students bothered to turn up. me and tri sat together and i think both of us were stoning. louise kept smsing me. i think she's was really freaked out by our project as it was due today. to be honest, sometimes its a little hard to understand her but i guess her 'rudeness' is really just part of her. she may not notice it but it's just her. and i dont hate it. just only when i'm the recieving end, then that's a bitch.
mr omar's lesson was really boring. plus i was in a really bad mood by then thanks to some idiot. went downstairs to try cool off. luckily bex, louise, decky and jaime were there with me and that made me feel much better.
i really think that they're so decent. maybe on the outside everyone looks different. but inside there's a genuinely sincere person, we just need to understand.
rushed to SMa meridien to finish off our project. ate subway again. ahahha. i seriously need to chill out on those subway cookies. i ate another one today. aaaah, the guilt! >.<
rinkoo tried to help us by giving us some notes and all. really damn scared. don't understand what the fuck i'm suppose to do during the exam. i need to study but i'm not motivated. neither do i have the right mindset. i'm so exhausted from all the classes.
talked to chris today. i guess it put me in a better mood coz he tends to understand me than others. plus he doesnt judge me for anything. AND he takes what i say seriously. PLUS i got to chat with wen jie which made me super super happy until an idiot ruined my mood again. =/ i know that everyone tells me to ignore but i wear my heart on my sleeve. my emotions define what sort of person i am. i'm not a robot. i'm a human, a woman. i am me. and i wouldnt trade places with anyone in this world.
at least mr jeffrey made it worthwhile. it was a bit pathetic since only FIVE students bothered to turn up. me and tri sat together and i think both of us were stoning. louise kept smsing me. i think she's was really freaked out by our project as it was due today. to be honest, sometimes its a little hard to understand her but i guess her 'rudeness' is really just part of her. she may not notice it but it's just her. and i dont hate it. just only when i'm the recieving end, then that's a bitch.
mr omar's lesson was really boring. plus i was in a really bad mood by then thanks to some idiot. went downstairs to try cool off. luckily bex, louise, decky and jaime were there with me and that made me feel much better.
i really think that they're so decent. maybe on the outside everyone looks different. but inside there's a genuinely sincere person, we just need to understand.
rushed to SMa meridien to finish off our project. ate subway again. ahahha. i seriously need to chill out on those subway cookies. i ate another one today. aaaah, the guilt! >.<
rinkoo tried to help us by giving us some notes and all. really damn scared. don't understand what the fuck i'm suppose to do during the exam. i need to study but i'm not motivated. neither do i have the right mindset. i'm so exhausted from all the classes.
talked to chris today. i guess it put me in a better mood coz he tends to understand me than others. plus he doesnt judge me for anything. AND he takes what i say seriously. PLUS i got to chat with wen jie which made me super super happy until an idiot ruined my mood again. =/ i know that everyone tells me to ignore but i wear my heart on my sleeve. my emotions define what sort of person i am. i'm not a robot. i'm a human, a woman. i am me. and i wouldnt trade places with anyone in this world.
what we could have been, 2:52 pm.
